7 Nov 2009 - Statistic in Education Examination

How did I do on the statistic examination? My application of the Statistic knowledge is still not strong. I had not mastered the basic principal. I know about the questions asked but I cannot explain the answers in words. I still need the text book to refer. there is little hope to get A for I did not answer one main question which already takes 9 marks off. I finished the examination, so now what? There is nothing to do ( nothing of importance to read/have to read) until the next semester starts which is on 28th of December 2009. The other paper I took this semester is the Practicum Counseling which do not have examination but there is a take home test which I had submitted. The group mates that I am with this semester are quiet different. Most of them are young and very competitive as well as selfish. I felt left out and there is no team spirit. I felt that I am the only one wanting to contribute but the other are all takers and not much contribution. Again I am reminding myself that I am an old student and have different values. I had not communicated well among member of the class. I had not made an effort to really get to know members in class. I am rembering that "what I give is what I get." Like today I could feel the jolt when I call on to Sabba a group mate but he never responded back. I asked myself why?Let it be for I had made the first move to say hi to him. So it is his own funeral if he does not respond. My other group gather to pay me the photostat money for the group. They gave me RM10.00 which I do not want to accept but instead suggested a treat at the canteen. But they insist on the money so I took it for the cost of paper printed for the assignment which is too much. Any way thanks friends. Today do not feel very well for the headaches and the running nose makes me cough a lot of green flam but I made it to the examination hall and answered what ever questions I understood. On the way back home I stop at my favorite food stall and treat myself to a bowl to Tom Yam (Hot, spicy, sour Thai soup) and plain white rice. I bought and bring home 2 pieces of fried chicken, beef bone soup and double portion of mixed fruits and special gravy. My semester for this year is done . So WHAT ARE MY PLAN FOR YEAR 2010? SO WHAT IS YOURS?

ALMOST A YEAR LATER -TODAY SAT,OCT 3,2009

Keeping to my own promises is one of the hardest things I had to discipline myself. I find it really difficult to keep a diary - a daily one. It is really almost a year since I wrote down about what I feel, what I think and what I did since I took up Counseling Skill. I am back tonight to answer these 8 questions: 1. What happened? 2. What were your feelings?3. How did you react? 4.What did you do?5.What did you learn about yourself?6. What did you learn from the situation? 7.What were your assumptions in entering this situation? 8.How have these assumptions been changed?
Today I went to class at 2.00pm as usual. I was surprise everyone look well into a long class, I later found out that session had started as early as 12.00pm. I was on campus but no one inform me about the class time change? who change the time? One more shock when my own group mate accidentally told me there was class on last week, (I was happily holidaying instead, I really would appreciate it if someone just tell me even though I could not make it) I was damned angry, boy no one had my phone number? we do have a group e mail...did any one really care or know I existed?are these the kind of counselors we are going to be? I was angry about being left out?I checked the group email so many times, Could not the Dr.post these time changes through the email. He may have told this one guy who forgot to contact me or do not have my numbers?As I drank down my anger I cool off about being sore at classmates who forgot to contact me. At that time I felt so unappreciated and frustrated. I wanted so much to learn on the techniques, practicum and now I learned I missed the best part of those demos- i missed in all at least 6 demos. Now I know, I have not made any friend who cares. I start to evaluate things from my end. Is this the type of communication of level I am capable of? Only at superficial level?I began to apply the ABC model of REBT to my situation. Boy I am awfulizing the situation and making myself sick. Actually I was not well, I have been having asthmatic problem an coughing. Now that I wrote it down I felt better. I am better at controlling my feeling nowadays I do not keep it in me I learn to let go integrate it with other things in my life. I am already too old to get stuck at one level of communication. I want to move on. All this time I know about not to blame others, justifying my doing and be responsible, it is still easier said than done.