MY MANDALAY WITHIN A MANDALAY - SHAMROCK

I have not kept my word of writing this practice journaling. It is not a normal thing for me to write or journal my seven aspects of the everyday experiences. Like today its the 18/08/2008, that more then a week since I wrote. I had turned on the PC many time but did not go to my own blog to write. What happened? Its plain commitment of mine. I still have to learn to stick to what I say and do it. How did you react? My reaction was .. I say to myself I am lazy to write it I know its for my own good but I will do it later. Fulfilling my own promise seem a "never mind thing" so its or whatever I said I would do ..its ok to it later and things in everyday life moves at its own speed...and I cannot catch up with my own "to do" list . What did you do? I was changing my priorities. I excuse myself that I was busy helping my niece make arrangement to register,then lead her to how to go to her new university by using the LRT train.What did you learn about yourself?. I put aside my priority without backing it up.. ie find time to write my journal. What did you learn from the situation? I learn that what matters is if i cannot keep my own words I will suffer in the end. I will lose on time and I cannot get it back. What were your assumptions in entering this situation? That I could easily come back to my pc and write it out which is not easy. How have these assumptions been changed?I check my self on making my promises at all the time, I must learn not to assume....ask and ask myself why I make the commitment and get it done if not 100 % do part of it. Controlling my own self discipline requires more focused energy and I know the end or the goal is the motivation to do it.... so I know I need to visualized my end to get up and do my list....